I am acutely aware that I am sporadic on here with posting, and with replying to comments. I am also not good at following other’s blogs. It’s a wonder that I still have supportive readers out there.
And, so, thank you beyond measure for sticking with me, supporting me, reading my blog even in the face of epic silence when I am late replying to comments, or very tardy with the next post. Your support is not unrecognized.
Sometimes it’s all I can do to post, and then I just kind of float on by until I post again. I’m realizing more and more how dissociative I have been through out my life, so dissociative that it became a reflex for me, a default of sorts. This past weekend I’ve really noticed the extent to which I tend to dissociate. I noticed this because it was like world around me was sharper, louder, clearer, like a swath of cotton was pulled away from my face, and the world became more apparent to me. It was the first time I felt like I was in the world, and not a spectator to it.
Thank you for sticking with me, and I will try to be better at being engaged on here, but just know that if or when I do disappear that I am trying to get back. I will always try to get back. I promise that.