No matter what, keep going

That’s what I’ve been doing. I’ve been keeping up the good fight, regardless of how I’ve felt. Also, I am very grateful to everyone that has left such supportive comments, and has been patient with me, and my dreary self these past several days.

It’s bad for me not to post regularly, as I’m absolutely stuck on what to write, what to say. I can start with what’s new in my world. I went on a date last night. I know that may sound a bit mad, as I’ve not been in the best state of mind lately.

It was one of those accidental things. I logged on to my match.com account out of curiosity. I had not been on the site in a couple of months. I saw that I had an email from a guy with whom I have a number of things in common with, a rarity! I’m rarely this interested in a person, but I emailed him back right away. Thankfully, he had only emailed me two days prior.

So, I checked in with all the parts if they thought this was a good idea. Someone had a mild objection. I’m not sure who, but we worked through it. I promised that if it seemed even remotely iffy we would be out of there.

Strangely, but wonderfully, I did not start to shake during the date. We just went for tea, but you never know what will start me shaking. He was very much a gentleman, and all the parts approved of him. Everyone was well behaved, so this bodes well for him.

Somehow I let it slip that I blog. He then asked me what I blog about, and I realized that I was stuck, as I was not going to lie. I said that I blog about my PTSD, and I said that I wasn’t sure if that was too much information. His face then softened, and he said that he understood better than I knew, that 9/11 is very hard for him every year. He then looked at me, and said that if he ever does anything to trigger me to please tell him, and that not to worry as it’s not too much information.

It’s promising, and I do like him. But I’m cautious, as I know he does not have anything close to even half the picture of me. I’m not even sure if I should be dating. Though I do know that I’m comfortable around him, and that does not come easily for me. We shall see.

10 thoughts on “No matter what, keep going

  1. So glad you got out and enjoyed yourself…! I feel protective of you, so not to mother-hen you or anything,…just please be careful with yourself. No matter what happens with this guy, you are deserve some happiness.

  2. Something I’ve learned in relationships is it’s like carrying a basket of raw eggs that are me. I have a choice if and with whom I share them with. In my unhealthty days,

    s that are parta of you. When you meet someone, and th

    • I’ll have to finish my comment tomorrow abt the egg story. But what it all boils down to is I admire your courage and ability to live your life in spite of it’s twists and turns. “I salute you, Comrade!” Have a great evening. ::)

  3. If he used the term, “trigger”, maybe he really does get it. Trigger is a term that people that either have PTSD or know someone pretty well that has it would be more likely to use. Even if it doesn’t work out in the relationship department, maybe he’d be friend-worthy. Good for you for getting out there, even when things are hard.

  4. No matter what comes of this, it sounds like you had a nice time. You had healthy internal communication beforehand, and you stood up to your word to protect the System if something was iffy. And even better – the date went well. I’m glad it turned out to be a nice experience for you.

    -Nel

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