Could I be afraid of happiness?

Happiness

The thought occurred to me when I noticed I felt happy, and upon noticing it I felt nervous, like I was dropping my guard, making myself unready for the next disaster.

But how ready am I for disaster if I am always on the lookout for danger or disaster? It’s no way to live. I know this, but how do I change this?

I certainly want peace and happiness. Perhaps a preliminary step is awareness of my tendency to sabotage happiness.

My brain is not my friend today.

(Photo credit: firexbrat)

5 thoughts on “Could I be afraid of happiness?

  1. Have you ever heard the term “radical acceptance”? It might help with the idea of acknowledgement being a good step towards reordering your thought process. It has helped me a lot with my anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder. Good luck!

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