You had dinner with Jack tonight, and you’ve assessed that the two of you are better off as friends. In fact, the more time you spend with him the more confident you become in that assessment. There’s nothing obnoxious about him, you wouldn’t be friends with him if there was. It’s just that the two of you are incredibly different in terms of lifestyle, and what you want out of life.
However, today at dinner you found your mind starting to stray into that murky territory of attraction. But, big but here, you know that an addict is always an addict, especially a sex addict. You know, in that wise mind of yours, that you were starting to lust after him, simple as that.
You know all too well that if you had met Jack four years ago before you hit rock bottom with alcohol and sex that you would have devoured him and spit him out by now. He would only have lasted two weeks at the most in your life, and that was by design. You preferred it that way. You were in control, that is, until you weren’t in control at the very end.
He walks you to your car after dinner.You think about kissing him. Instead, you give him kale and beets from the farm share box in your car. Jack is a very good friend, and you’ve come to value friendship in recovery.
A Year in the Life of PTSD 
Your actions, as described in this post, show real strength of mind. I hope you feel proud of yourself. All the best x
Thank you. I’m just glad I didn’t botch things up. I used to do that quite a lot. I don’t want to lose his friendship.
Good read. I prefer the term “Once an Addict, always vulnerable” instead of the cliche term used, “Once and Addict, always an Addict.” I explain why in this post on my site:
http://castimonia.org/2012/07/08/once-an-addict-always-an-addict/
Thanks for the read!
yes what soberistas said!
Sweet! 🙂
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Such strength 🙂
Thanks Bourbon! 🙂
I give you a lot of credit for acknowledging where that attraction was coming from! That takes a lot of strength and self-awareness.
Thanks! I am grateful that I had my wise mind, and that I was listening to it.
That took a lot of self-awareness. I would like to get to that point one day where I can examine the motives behind things before I do them.
Hi, Thanks, but I didn’t get to this place overnight. I made a lot of mistakes even while in sobriety. You can get there. I am going to celebrate 4 years next month.
Beatriz