I had a hard day. Beatriz was sad all day because we did not make it to church because of me. I did not want to go. I was scared she was gonna yell at me. She said said that she doesn’t like to yell. It’s not how she does things. Then I got sadder because she was still sad. She said we would talk to Doc about it tomorrow.
I thought Beatriz was not going to pay attention to me all day, but we went to Barnes and Noble. She let me have a passion fruit iced tea like I like to have. She also let me read my new Ivy and Bean book that she bought me on her Nook. Then I asked if I could get the next Ivy and Bean book. She said not to PRESS MY LUCK. Okay.
I don’t want her to hate me. I am scared.
She said she does not hate me. She said I need to understand that not all churches are bad. This is a different church from what we knew at home. This is something called UUs. They also say they are free seekers. Beatriz reminded me that this is the same church where I get to help build gingerbread houses next Saturday with other kids my age. Beatriz signed up as a helper so that I could come along. She asked if she should cancel that. I said no I want to make gingerbread houses with other kids. I don’t get to see a lot of kids. She said that since I didn’t want to join then maybe we shouldn’t do church things anymore. But I just didn’t want us to get up in front of the whole church. It scared me. She didn’t cancel the gingerbread house thing. I am glad.
But she is still sad and kind of mad. But I think not as mad.
why are you scared of her?
I am not scared of Beatriz. I am scared she is going to stop talking me because she is mad at me.
I don’t think she will. I think she cares about you. Look at how she took care of you today. She bought you tea, she didn’t make you go to church, she is going to take you to build the gingerbread house..those are caring things. 🙂
She’s not mad at you
Thank you for talking to me journeyman
always…as long as I’m around. huge hug